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I can never presume to have had emotions as most of you. All I can say is thank God for all of you who put your life on the line for people like me....we are hearing more and more on PTSS especially from the military, I never killed anyone, I dont know what it is like to live with that, valid kill or not. But I do know self preservation kicks in when you need it. I have mixed emotions about what happened with me. Until it happens you just dont know, oh ya think you do until it goes down. Given every circumstance and all the time to think it over, I wouldnt change a thing. I am glad in another way that I was tested and reacted the way I did. I do know stress can eat you away and you dont even know thats whats doing it. Maybe its good to talk maybe its not...hell I am not sure of anything anymore...
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nothing like the smell of chanel and gunpowder in the morning
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